I am so lucky to have such loving grandparents. They tell…

I am so lucky to have such loving grandparents. They tell me they love me all the time. They remind me to do things I don't feel like doing, but they do it because they love me. They really give a shit. I miss them so much. I wish I could see them every day. I used to spend summers with my dad's parents. I miss those summers. I have no idea why I snapped at my grandparents so much growing up. I really was kind of a bitch to them. But, I was a kid, determined to be belligerent, angsty, and bitchy. My grandparents still love me. What more could I ask from them? I put them through years of worrying about me like I was their own child. I hope they have lots of time left. It would break my heart to lose them, I don't like to say "will."

My poppop rocks the coolest white mustache. He had always been energetic for his age, determined, and smart. He always seems confident of himself. Loves fishing. Loves falling asleep while "watching" sports. Practical. Made a kickass porch on his cottage in New York. My grandma just wants me happy and healthy. And alive. I remember she never wanted me swimming in the deep parts of the lake. She was afraid I'd drown. Grilled cheese, tomato soup, and blueberry pancakes remind me of her.